Sometimes you wonder how things can be going so good, yet you feel like everything is all wrong. Wonderful things are happening at an accelerated rate. The Great plan is coming together, but something is not quite right. I have not been this excited and happy in a long time, yet my feeling of underlying sadness overwhelms me. I want to shout out my joy to the world, but the echo of my voice would be hard to bear. Somehow, over time I have found myself alone. Oh, I don't mean alone and single. I am married to the most wonderful man in the world. I don't know how I managed to get so lucky. He is a very large part of my joy, the joy that I can't share with anyone. The reason for this is because their is no one there to share with. I know that a large part of this is my own fault. I have drifted apart from people through the years, letting time and distance get between us. Some of my really old friends are probably remembering me as the troubled party animal I was when I was younger. God, was I screwed up. I had a lot of fun but....jeeez! I am sure that they have matured in their outlook the same as I have yet, they must think that I haven't. Lord! I'm 55 years old now and have no illusions about it.
But, I digress. Somewhere, out there in this cyber world that we have created; my friends are typing and texting and generally just staying in touch with their loved ones. I hope that some of you remember that at one time, you considered me one of them.
I must make it be known that this only pertains to some specific people, they will know who they are.
No comments:
Post a Comment